I was diagnosed with manic depression, more
commonly known as Bipolar Disorder, in December 2008. Like some people who have
been diagnosed, I have spent time in psychiatric institutions due to
"manic episodes". During my period of "mania” between November
and December 2010, I kept a series of journals. It's taken me three years since
the last entry in these journals to be able to read them, as I do not remember
most of what it is that I wrote. The months that the entries were written are
provided. Nothing has been edited. I have categorized and highlighted certain
aspects that I find interesting. There are three journals, which also include
detailed experiences in the psychiatric institutions. I do not wish to trigger
anyone. If you wish, you may contact me as I am very open to discussing this
topic. The reason I have decided to share excerpts from these writings is not
to "save anyone" or to claim that I know everything there is to know
about manic depression, or life in general for that matter. It is simply being
shared in order to gain a better understanding of it. I'm also not claiming to
agree or disagree with any ideas that are being presented, this is just simply
what was written at the time. I ask that you do not judge. Please open up your
heart while reading these quotes, as they are a very personal aspect of my life.
Manic/Psychological Concepts:
- "Don't they always say that life happens
for a reason? Life becomes a lot easier once you truly believe this. Is that
how a manic person achieves that feeling of euphoria?
Trust me, life is a lot easier when you
"know where you're going" and "everything is put in place for
"the plan" "
- " *we just express ourselves differently*
Takes us more time to gather our thoughts. Doesn't mean we are stupid.
Actually, it would appear to be the exact opposite."
- "Manic thoughts are thoughts. Period. Don't
hide from them. Just because people tell you it's not normal. If normal is that
out there, then "crazy" is what I definitely would prefer to
be."
- "We understand the unknown."
- "We are just grinding our gears. It's no
wonder we explode and make rash decisions. And this isn't unique to the
mentally ill. It's human nature."
- "Human nature. Minus human. Still equals
nature. Nature will always be here. Once human nature starts to overpower,
Nature's will, she will always fight back. And as much as we hate and are
scared to admit it, that is one battle we CANNOT win. As hard as that is to
admit.
How can you nuke something that isn't there?
You can't!"
- "Closed doors are key. Like I said, senses
are way too heightened right now. If you have a thought, it's important to
understand where that thought is coming from"
- "When you write something down when you
are manic. If it isn't important, then you go to the next topic. Hence why sh*t
we write never makes sense."
- "Stigma literally means hot iron being
branded into your forehead. The burn is there. People just need to open all
three eyes."
- "I don't like pens. They are too
slow."
- "Once you figure out what the puzzle looks
like, you can start putting the pieces together."
- "My head is crazy. No wonder they call me
crazy. I am. I feel like I can read people."
- "Whoever is racing to the finish of life
never gets to appreciate the scenery. If we all just adopted the philosophy of
togetherness we will all be able to conquer the world. Together."
- "Where does mania begin and happiness
end?"
- "The scars are there even though you can't
see them."
Religion:
- “Religion is supposed to be a moral compass,
whereas organized religion acts as a form of pseudo-morality.
Once you attempt to impose your views or beliefs
on anyone else, the most amazing and genuine things become tainted.
Religion should unite us. Religion and
spirituality are synonyms. Therefore organized religion and religion itself are
opposites.
Organized religion is just another application of
the age of “divide and conquer” theory.”
- “Same message. All the beef. Organized religion
is the beef between the bun. And what is a hamburger without beef?
Bread.”
Politics:
- "Why is it that people around the world
live in insanely depressing environments. And we fall apart at the slightest
change in our little bubbles. Just like the palace of Versailles under Louis
XIV
Removed the voters (aka bourgeoisie) from the poverty
2/3 of the population was suffering. By doing so, they were not forced to be
around any suffering and therefore couldn't experience it.
How did he keep the masses quiet? He kept them
busy by forcing them to pay ridiculously high taxes. They were so afraid of
what the state would do to them if they didn't pay the taxes tha they kept
working and sacrificing to protect their family and themselves."
- "Communism and fascism overlap. They all
lead to the same thing: suffering."
- "We need to think more round and less
straight."
- "We live in a society that employs the
classic divide and conquer. We are suffering as a result of a divide and
conquer mentality."
- " "Money can't buy you
happiness." anonymous: "that's crap" So, by your logic, no one
was EVER happy until we invented money?
Printing more money.
Money is paper. Paper comes from trees. Trees
help us breathe.
If this is "common scientific
knowledge" then how can people rationalize cutting them all down?
They can't."
- "Scarcity is an excuse for the free market
to monopolize the world."
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